In this day and age where everyone seems to be looking for easy fixes in relationships, one can only hope.... hope that they find their home... coz those are the best kinda relationships...
When the sun goes down and the band won’t play, I’ll always remember us this way.. LONG POST ALERT!
This is a 3-in-1 post. Part Nostalgia, part a continuation of an older post and finall part self-realisation.
Nostalgia- There are moments which even while they are happening, we already know they are going to have a profound effect on us. A before and after moment of sorts. Two years ago, my life as I knew it had changed forever. I woke up on this beautiful day and everything seemed to make perfect sense. Everything fit. Everything felt right.
Continuation of a previous post- I had posted earlier that while watching a sunset one evening I did something I haven’t done since I was a kid. But that evening, standing alone on a stretch of beach, watching other couples share the beauty of the magnificent sunset, I bent down to pick a pebble and drew a broken dream on the sand. SK And Tanya. I walked away knowing the water would come in and wash my kiddish artwork away. I remember it was kind of poetic and maybe it was the closure I needed. But the universe has a funny sense of humour. It had been months since Mr.SK and I had any contact but the very next day Mr. SK msgd to say he was in my hometown Goa and thought he would say hi. The romantic in me would like to think the waters carried my msg from the shores of the Andaman Islands and placed them at his feet while he walked the beaches of Goa. For a brief moment in time our hearts reconnected.
Self-realisation- while it has been months since the above incident, I was recently reminded of it when a friend I hadn’t met in years asked me how I had been. He specifically asked “have you become a little romantic since the last time we met?” Yes! I think I have. 2 years ago, I woke up knowing I was capable of loving. Of thinking of another person above myself. Of writing a love letter in the sand.
Most importantly though, I believe in love. I am hopeful of loving fiercely again and that Mr. Right is just around the corner and this time, he will choose to stay.
Major missing happening.. throwback to my fantastic bday vacay with my bestie.. she always has my back and has seen me at my worst and still loves me... she is my other half.. together we manage to plan epic holidays.. in spite of all my “Concordia” escapades, she still wants to travel with me.. 😘😘😘 @candicepinto_19 love you tons.