Throwback to these odd butterfly cupcakes I made back in 2015 🙈
Fun fact: I used to want to open a bakery! Aaaand then it became borderline-disordered thanks to my ED.
It feels so strange to look back on my pre-ED self; it feels like I'm observing some foreign creature, not Younger Me. Baking, ballet, and family made up my entire life; now, I'm rarely baking, I haven't taken a ballet class in over a year (pointe in over 3), and my relationship with my family is rocky at best.
But that's not to say I haven't found more things to fill my time with; I've been doing yoga, crocheting, watching Grey's Anatomy, and writing more (mainly random snippets of a novel I hope to write + LOTS of edgy poems). It's definitely a different set of activities from what I used to do, but that doesn't make it bad. I'm enjoying what I'm doing, and that's all that matters.
I guess it's all part of that "self-discovery" thing - you know, the one that helps you realize there is more to you than your eating disorder? .
Another thing I've learned? I don't have to have my life revolve around social media. I would've posted a picture of me doing yoga or something more current, but I didn't feel like dropping everything I was doing just so I could get a picture 💁
This last month has been filled with me doing what I love..sourcing, curating and selling preloved gems..and it turns out that what I love, other people want to support too!🤩🥰✨🏔👌🏾🥂⚡️🔥🌈
Before I go into the world of learning my own language at my ripe adult age 🦅-I have begun to really consider how much of my energy and attention has so far been focused on other people’s intentions and agendas for me.
And so, I’m taking a deliberate step away from being a mainstream teacher to carve out a life focused on practicing my own forms of manaakitanga and tinorangatiratanga; giving, becoming and being me, on my terms. xxx
repost from @grlpwrpod .
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Hello 👋🏻 How is your day going?
I have honestly felt stressed & overwhelmed for a couple of days and today I am feeling sick on ALL levels from an intense allergic reaction, of course I also took an exam today, I have two papers due before my thesis, I am starting an internship along with my regular student job this week and this health setback is hard to deal with physically & mentally. My year is basically packed with deadline & duties, planned out until end of Aug... All of that was increasing my stress level every day, more doubts & rumination than usual too, constantly focusing on the negatives - not as bad as it used to be, but still enough to make me feel off.
A year ago, I would have got stuck in this cycle of overthinking, stressing and neglecting my needs, but I usually just don’t allow myself to go near that anymore. Sure, sometimes (like today) I feel like shit, but I know that will pass! So to pull myself out of this weird funk, I’m posting this selfie from a few days ago when I felt great and I’m looking for the positives in everything ✨
Today‘s exam was my last Psychology exam (probably) EVER, I actually prefer writing papers over exams and one will be easy & quick to finish, I will be supervised by the most amazing, kind professor for my thesis, I am curious and excited to learn new things about digital marketing at my internship, I like my work place & colleagues, my adverse allergic reaction clearly reveals that histamine has been a huge problem for me for a long time and I‘m supporting my body through earlier bed times, walks, more basic carnivore meals and a taiji class that I signed up to with my lovely Mom ♥️ I am thankful to my body for showing me that I was over-stressing — so I am resting. My thoughts are at ease now, because I know: Whatever comes will come. I will meet it and make the best of it.
So many people underestimate the power of their thoughts and especially their positive thoughts! Remember that everything is created twice: first in our minds and then in reality. I make a conscious effort to find the positive in everything and to send out what I want in my life daily: love, gratitude, positive energy ♥️✨
If you ever need confirmation that God will equip you for what He calls you to do, here it is. In this passage, God is telling Moses who he has called to design, build, and craft everything needed for the tabernacle. After He names them, he tells Moses that He has equipped them for the job.⠀
Never doubt that He will equip you, too. Step out in faith even when you don’t feel capable.⠀
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Wake up ~ Thrive ~ Get it Done “My name is Jessica Rubinski from Charlotte, NC and THIS is my Thrive Experience!
I started my Thrive Experience in March of 2017. At the time, I was a senior tax accountant at a large accounting firm and also a mom to a high energy dog!
I was a month into my busy tax season, which required LONG hours and a 6 day work week. I struggled to get to the gym, eat well, and get my dog enough exercise.
It was a constant battle between taking care of myself, my fur-baby, and getting all of my work done.
I knew that I needed more energy and focus to make it through work each day, but also to have the motivation to exercise in my free time! I was gaining weight, extremely stressed out, and never felt well.
I saw my sorority sister posting on social media about this amazing product that gave her the energy to take care of her family and be happy! I watched as she posted pictures of her intense trips to the gym wearing that “sticker”. And finally when she, a former collegiate cheerleader, shared that she fit into her college jeans again- I was floored!
I messaged her right away and placed my order for all 3 steps (capsules, Lifestyle Mix, DFT)! I was determined to give it a shot and followed her instructions!
Day 1: I took my capsules first thing and took my dog for a quick walk. I remember feeling “awake” by the time I got home. I drank my Lifestyle Mix and then applied my DFT to my skin.
Day 3: After taking my 3-simple steps I was in a better mood, singing while I got ready for work, and had better focus all around.
From then on…I was a Thriver! Thrive gives me energy, mood support, better sleep, and the motivation to get Life Done! I’m a better friend, co-worker, daughter, girlfriend, dog-mom! I’m the best version of ME!
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This girl is at the age where she likes to shop with me, give me fashion advice, and share make up tips. I’ve loved each season more than the last!⠀
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Here’s to a new week! What are your plans for the week?
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"Yoy can't use up creativity. The more you use, the more you have!" -Maya Angelou
What are some of your favorite quotes?
One reason I created this account was to help others avoid the mistakes I made. I use to think I had to restrict myself from foods I enjoyed and limit myself to less than 1,300 cals a day. One of the reasons people binge eat is because their bodies go into a survival mode from depriving themselves of food. This was me. And then I would do so much cardio to burn it off and go back to restriction. It was a vicious cycle and honestly something I think more people struggle with in their fitness journeys than we think. I cant tell you how much happier I am now! I eat foods that make me feel great and I enjoy every meal. Honestly sometimes I track now to make sure I’m eating ENOUGH food. I workout depending on how I feel and never use exercise as punishment for how I ate. You should not feel like you are just trying to survive. You have a whole life to live and it should be lived to its fullest. And yes, you can be lean and still enjoy your favorite foods. You can be lean and not do hours upon hours of cardio. But also, there is so much more to fitness than being lean. It’s about feeling good and doing something for yourself. Your health is so much more than your appearance! #fitnesstransformation#thrivingnotsurviving#choosehealthy
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2015 ——> 2018:
Starving vs. well-fed 🍩
Insecure vs. confident in myself 🧜🏼♀️
Struggling with my body image vs. being at peace with my body 👯♀️
Wanting to shrink vs. wanting to thrive 💃🏻
Mentally and physically exhausted vs. mentally and physically balanced 😇
Constantly anxious vs. mostly happy and calm 🤗
I asked Shaun to say a few words about this comparison photo.
His first reaction was “DAAAANG Shaun, you got old!” 😂
Then he got serious and said:
“To anyone that is worried their partners will leave them if they gained weight:
Rini is equally beautiful in both pictures but both of us are so much happier in the second photo, because we are able to actually do fun things together, book spontaneous trips, have more meaningful conversations, hang out with other people and enjoy life together!” ❤️
PS: my new website is LIVE and has a lot of new (free) work books and resources for recovery, intuitive eating, body image, self love and more! Link in bio 🤗
To do lists can often seem daunting when you’re experiencing limited energy. We can focus our attention on the mundane things we have to do, or create lists of things we need to do but will struggle to complete. Before this relapse I loved a long to do list more than anything, in fact I’d have several on the go for different areas of my life 😂🙈 it made me feel productive and focused (despite the fact I was working myself into the ground). Problem is while I may have been getting things done the important stuff I really needed to do more of was being ignored and pushed to the bottom of those lists.
Not anymore though! I still create to do lists but they aren’t daily or have time limits attached, I suppose they are more “flexible to get around to at some point lists” these days! Then I create lists like these ✨✨💫 the things I need to do more of, the things I’m not doing enough of and things that are vital to my healing/recovery/happiness/general wellbeing. Creating happiness is a conscious thing I really feel and now I’m no longer on auto pilot I ensure I make room and time in my life for the important stuff that contributes to living a life that’s a tad sweeter. It’s difficult I admit when you’re feeling rough and it feels like a constant stream of bad days. There are days you simply don’t want to laugh because it all feels too much and that’s okay! You don’t have to! (Or sometimes I’ll lower laughing to a smile so it’s half way there 😉) although this is a list of things to do more of, at the same time there’s no pressure to tick all these off in one day, no way there is way to too much for one day! The reality of this list is it’s there to remind me to check in with myself and ask myself what haven’t I done enough of lately that made me happy? So I can adjust to my illness and focus on one of them in the next few days and then help cultivate and maintain my more positive mindset and grab happy joy filled moments! 💖
What would you add to your “to do more of list”? Or which of these do you want to focus on more this coming week?