Yes... the beginning of the FINAL month of the second year ( #odaat) and my goodness was it ever a period of #growth. My brain snapped.. but luckily, I have an amazing #support system... I wanted to hurt myself this week because picking up meth wasn't an option, and kitty cuddles & food weren't helping with the #pain and #trauma that had come to #heal... and out of the blue, I texted a woman friend in recovery, and she said "come over" here's the thing... we can pretend to care, but we can't pretend to show up. I allowed myself To be #vulnerable and let #love in, then slowly, those thoughts dissipated. Another good friend and I went out for eats and kept me company for groceries... I just didn't allow myself to be alone... I was alone in my #addiction, so do the opposite for #recovery. Coming up on two years, the brain does some crazy shit. But I reminded myself, #gratitude#selflove#selfcare#reachingout#reachingup and #lookingin also.. What's changed this year is doing a lot of work, #innerchild#progressnotperfection getting #uncomfortable#honest and #wrong all so I can keep #learning... it's up to US to do the work.. it's up to US to make the #change. Yes.. even kept it to ONE latte this week... when we #believe, anything is possible. I never thought I'd ever be able to stop drinking or smoking meth... let alone for 23 months... but looks like the #universe has something else in store for me. #thankyouUniverse#thankyoueveryone#myrecoveryjourney
I may have lost someone who didn't love me but you lost someone who truly loved you* ( i m sorry... i make this picture so fast ...i forget to read what i write.....)i am thinking about someone else maybe thats why its happened idk i want to say sorry 🙁
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do u hate anyone rn?
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Can we hit 20k by the end of the month ?🤔
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