What really is the point of social media?
I have noticed that without being told the rules... I have been following some sort of script...
Food pictures... Party pictures... Vacation pictures... Ranting posts... Political posts... Funny posts... Look at my awesome kid posts... Look im following my dreams posts... Look how many cool things im doing posts... Look how pretty I am from specific angle posts...Look how wise i am posts... Stop being stupid ignorant asshole racist posts... Look im posting wise meme posts... Woke af posts... Fuck the system posts... My heart is so broken, yet here are pictures to prove im still alive and funtioning posts... Anyways... Im pushing the boundaries of my comfortable conformity.
Honestly? I regret the day I ever asked for help with my eating disorder.
I wish I could move away somewhere that no one knows me and I can live my life how I want to live it.
No one telling me exactly what to do in every aspect of my life.
I’ve already lost family, friends, boyfriends, my job... the list could go on. So there’s no point staying here but unfortunately I’m trapped. Like I have been for the past 4 and a half years of treatment.
I get no say in anything I do and I’ve just completely had enough now. I’m at breaking point and don’t think people realise just how they are making me feel.
I know I’m never going to recover so what’s the point in even trying anymore?
I’m so done with this.