Not the most flattering Angle for mama , but after a rough night with Michael it was an early morning trip to the Vhi clinic , I couldn't face another trip to Temple street , he was there last Sunday and man the staff where under so much pressure and working to capacity , and although Michael is unwell and needing extra help with his breathing and very flat the total opposite to what he usually is even when sick I just couldn't face it , thankfully we we're seen quickly another dose of steroids and back to our GP Monday, he is so pale , so lethargic and just generally feeling rough , we spent our day on the couch having lots of snuggles to try and bring his temperature up , he went from having a high temp last night to struggling to maintain it at 35.7 , we had lots of hot drinks and nice warm shower and wrapping up in blanket and got him up to his normal of 36.8 where he has remained for the rest of today , these viruses are just awful and the sooner they do one the better ... Now hoping and praying Hugo avoids it to ... #sickboy#asthmalife#virus#hejustneedshismama#momof2#Momlife#myboys#mybabies#snuggles#sofasnuggles#sopale#tiredboy#tlcneeded#brothers#5yrold#4mthsold
Brothers and bestfriends
My heart gets so happy seeing Ace's face light up when he sees Tay after he has been in school all day. The bond you 2 have already amazes me. So happy you are both mine
It's rare I get to see my babies especially since they are so much older. Just know yall I got yall whenever yall need me and thats on everything. Auntie love yall
Around the time Amena was due, I remember feeling very sad, holding your hand as you were falling asleep, and suddenly feeling a kick from within, as if to remind me that our time alone is limited. I wondered - how could I ever love another child as I much as I love you, my kaleju Adnan?
Then she was born, and I watched you. I watched as you wondered who this new being was and why I was spending so much time with her. I watched the pain you felt at having to share me as you've never shared me before. I heard you telling me in your own way, "Please love only me" and I heard myself telling you in mine, “I can't”, knowing, in fact, that I never can again.
You cried. I cried with you. I almost saw our new baby as an intruder on the precious relationship we once shared.
But then, barely noticing, I found myself attached to that new being, and felt almost guilty. I was afraid to let you see me loving her - as though I was betraying you.
But then I noticed your resentment change - first to curiosity, then to protectiveness, and finally to genuine affection.
The memory of days with just the two of us seem so distant. But something else has replaced those wonderful times we shared, just the two of us.
There are new times - only now, we are three. I have watched the love between you grow, the way you look at each other, touch each other. I watch how she adores you -as I have for so long. I see how excited you are by each of her new accomplishments - and how excited she is by yours.
And I begin to realise that I haven't taken something from you, I've given something to you. I am no longer afraid to share my love openly with both of you. I find that my love for each of you is as different as you are, but equally strong.
And my question is finally answered, to my amazement. Yes, I can love another child as much as I love you - only differently.
And although I realise that you may have to share my time, I now know you'll never share my love. There's enough of that for both of you - you each have your own supply.
I love you - both. And I thank you both for blessing my life. ~Loving Two~ Author unknown #lovingtwo#siblinglove#family#mybabies