totally unrelated caption, but have any of my fellow mamas (or really anyone that’s seen an infant before) gotten 100% freaked out by the soft spot that’s on the top of a baby’s head that you can see their heartbeat through? currently staring at eden’s and it’s thoroughly rattling my brain 😅
I started putting patches on this pack to start conversation. I travel alone, and am not great at meeting people, so this seemed like a good way. And it has been! People always ask me about a place they see I’ve been. For recommendations or to reminisce together. It’s great.
But for some reason I still find myself sort of hiding it. I’m sitting at the airport right now with my pack facing backwards. I’m not sure why that is. Why I feel like an imposter. Like if someone sees my pack and then has a conversation with me it will be underwhelming.
It’s funny, for someone who shares a lot on the internet, I don’t actually like to share. I have to push myself to do it. One of the reasons I like solo travel is the ability to move through places unnoticed. Be a fly on the wall. I don’t want to stand out. And I think sometimes that’s okay.
But I’m also learning that it’s okay to be seen. To feel proud of my accomplishments (and patches). To literally wear them with pride. That it doesn’t matter what it symbolizes to someone else. Or what they think that says about me.
What matters is what I say about me.