This new year struggle is real but it is a good struggle. The headaches have gone, the neck pain has almost gone and the damage to it repairing. The ongoing fatigue has almost disappeared completely now and the emotional distress as well. Is this a literal case of ‘new year new me?’ It was, without a doubt a long struggle to get here.
The struggle now is to regain fitness. And, that is a good struggle to have. Some good people have helped immensely to push me in that direction lately. Being pushed without being broken for days after is a welcoming feeling. Stoked, to say the least. 👏
One of my favourite bloggers talks about knowing what you are prepared to struggle for. That life is difficult some of the time, no matter what. That stuff gets hard at times, no matter what. But, if we know what (and who) is really important to us then we endure the struggle that is present and grow with it, as it inevitably brings rewards out the other side that make it all worth it. Stick steadfastly to what and who you value, despite the ups and downs, and life can do nothing but eventually resemble your values really well all around you and be enhanced for all your experiences. #wildwomansisterhood#ridingthelimits#keepingitreal#authentic#whatajourney
So I decided to grow up and buy a scale. I cant keep letting my emotions around numbers run my life, and getting this puppy every morning will keep that number in my face as accountability for whats got to change. Also, I praise God from whom all blessings flow that that number is not bigger. Its about where I was before the holidays and how I managed not to gain much weight in the midst of a feasting free-for-all is only known by our merciful God. I refuse to greet 40 in the 200s. Here we go. .
Recently I was told I'm super robotic and don't know how to be human when interacting with actual people 🤖 .
Well sue me because that is mostly true, and I’m not sorry. I’m awkward and don’t like sharing much about me and my life (unless someone asks, and then I’m an open book!) - and I don’t know how to be “emotional” when appropriate.
As part of focusing on myself, I wanted to share with the world some of my strengths and weaknesses, because sometimes all it takes is acknowledging them so that I may embrace or improve where I see fit.
•I’m a goal getter and like to get to the point - small talk is not in my comfort zone.
•I care about people more than it appears and will do anything to help someone in need - even if that means letting it disrupt my life.
•Emotions are my weakness - I literally do not understand them, but I’m working on it.
•Sarcasm was the first language I learned growing up, and “Mexican tone (of voice)” is a real thing - just because my voice gets louder does not mean I’m mad. Neither does my RBF.
•I’m learning to appreciate the fact that I am a feminist - I have a passion for sharing all about women’s health and wellness and fully believe that a woman can do anything IF she sets her mind to it!
So there you go...this is me...my crazy world and now I’ve cracked it open for everyone to peak...if any of these things surprise you (or don’t) please humor me and tell me why! Maybe you all know me better than I know myself 😂
Yesterday I had a moment...
The past few days have been harder than I planned for lol one remember from a friend that the journey isn’t always gon be easy but worth it & nevertheless the less “God got you”. Those words brought me to tears because I knew that! I guess I needed to hear that & a cleanse I guess! Lol so I just stop by to encourage and inspire someone 🗣Your dreams require work! Don’t give in do the work until it works!
After our well deserved break we are back together planning what’s in store for 2019!
Also checking out the cutest little bagel shop in North East Valley 🥯
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One thing that I'm so blessed with is to have daughters that can entertain themselves and play together without the TV or needing ME to constantly be thinking of things for them to do. They are SO creative and SO independent with their play. They can play house or doctor or kitchen with their dolls forever. They color, paint and craft for hours on end. Of course I love to play with them and do often, but on days like today, when my neck hurts so bad I can barely turn it, it makes me extra grateful for how autonomous my sweet daughters are. Oh and don't worry they are just as good at cleaning up their messes as they are at making them, another HUGE blessing! #livedin#keepingitreal#gratefulformydaughters#Ineedcurtains
Me dreaming of eating donuts forever and still hitting my goals😂
Welp here’s some more accountability for myself -sigh*
Weighing in this morning at 159.... fucking cuteeee!
I was 154 in November and at one point I remember being 147 which was my ALL time low and here we are back on this rollercoaster 🎢
I mentioned in my stories that I’ve been in some type of funk lately and im sure it had to do with daily life stressors but I think the food I’ve been eating has a lot to do with it too! I used to think it was total BS that food made you feel a type of way -I mean donuts make me happy af- lol or at least I like to think they do until my body feels lethargic and gross in which case they really don’t..
Back to the grind guys! Embrace the suck and get back up ♥️
12 years ago my prayers were answered. Cashius Jack came in to our lives 🖤
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I distinctly remember writing a post like the one I’m about to write a few years ago...all about Oreos 🤣🤷♀️ I’m not perfect when it comes to eating...not even close. On most days I feel like I’m pretty balanced and there are others where the “all or nothing,” mindset creeps back inside.
Today was one of those all or nothing days. My day was off to a great start until....Eddyville. We meet with like subject area teachers on Wednesday’s and usually it’s no big deal.
About halfway through today one of the teachers suggested ice cream. I politely declined and then got suckered in. Seriously, ice cream is my favorite food. So, I just had some and didn’t feel guilty about it, just was going to count it as my yellows (carbs) for the day.
I got home, ate the healthy dinner I prepared which was riced cauliflower, chicken, topped with Alfredo sauce. It was good, I felt fine. .....then Marshall asked for a cookie and it was all downhill. You see, I can’t have just one or two Oreos. I had to have about ten of them.
Does this make me a bad leader?
A bad coach?
A bad Mom?
A bad motivator?
A bad person?
No. It simply makes me human.
I’m human. I struggle. I succeed. I get knocked down. I get right back up.
Yes, I ate the cookies but the good news is, now they’re gone 😊
Over the years, I have come to realize that the greatest trap in our life is not success, popularity, or power, but self-rejection. Success, popularity, and power can indeed present a great temptation, but their seductive quality often comes from the way they are part of the much larger temptation to self-rejection. When we have come to believe in the voices that call us worthless and unlovable, then success, popularity, and power are easily perceived as attractive solutions. The real trap, however, is self-rejection. As soon as someone accuses me or criticizes me, as soon as I am rejected, left alone, or abandoned, I find myself thinking, "Well, that proves once again that I am a nobody." ... [My dark side says,] I am no good... I deserve to be pushed aside, forgotten, rejected, and abandoned. Self-rejection is the greatest enemy of the spiritual life because it contradicts the sacred voice that calls us the "Beloved." Being the Beloved constitutes the core truth of our existence. #genuine#Mn7#beloved#Wearetheluckyones#keepingitreal#expressionofheart#feelingsdontdie
Investing in the next generation(s) is so important. I stand in awe at how savvy young people are and the means by which they communicate. By request, Ashley has begun to blog on her YouTube channel and is getting a positive response. I look forward to watching her creativity in action as it encourages some along the way. #PositiveVoice#WorldChanger#BeYourself#Teenagers#keepingItReal
Instagram “Real” Vs Real Me ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
Double TAP, share, comment if you needed this reminder today & tag your ladies below ... 🙌🏼🎉
NOW ..... I could have gone and shared the “Instagram” pic on the left and wrote up some inspiring caption about loving your body but my “real reality” was on the one on the right,
I just felt gross yet satisfied haha! 😂🤷🏼♀️
On this particular day .... I had the best sandwich for lunch!! It was filled with so much yummy-ness. It was on point! 👌🏼 however .... after eating it... I actually felt so tired, bloated & gross. I don’t regret eating the sandwich one bit!! It was actually so good!! ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
My point for this photo & this message is that what we put on Instagram or any social media platform is that we are the beholders of our account + our image.
We can show and portray whatever we want!
It’s taken years of practice of which some days I am still learning... but I am sharing this in efforts of #keepingitreal 👏🏻💜🌟
When you are scrolling seeing these photos just remember it could be real? Or it might not? ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
Social media can be an amazing outlet, there is a lot of good on here! There are accounts that are so positive and definitely leave me feeling like I’m not alone. It’s so important to go follow those accounts that make you feel good about yourself INSIDE & OUT.
We all have choices in life, you can choose whether social media makes you feel happy or crap. It comes down to who you are following.
STOP comparing yourself to the highlight reel. #justdoyou
Instead focus on your own life + make that shine, look at yourself in the mirror + the person you are today and EMBRACE the shit out of that👏🏻💗🌟✨🤩 #keepitrealinsta
At the end of the day, I share what I share so that I can be the best version of myself now and for the future.
My reminder to you:
You are beautiful and unique in your own way. 💎 ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
So like I’ve given you my reminder for the day...
Today my inspo was the gorgeous @karinairby ... for giving me the guts (literally) to #beokwithme#realdealsimonemarie
I didn’t have a cheat meal.
I haven’t eaten anything with gluten, dairy, or otherwise inflammatory.
And I’m NOT pregnant.
I am 5 pounds heavier today than I was yesterday.
This is endometriosis and as gross & uncomfortable as it looks, I feel even grosser & more uncomfortable. Even if I eat everything right (avoiding Inflammatory foods) this still occurs for about 1 - 2 weeks a month. I can’t imagine how much worse I would feel if I ate ‘unclean’.
I also can’t quite articulate what it feels like aside from explaining it feels like someone is pushing my insides OUT through my abdomen and sometimes, yes, my no-no-special-place. (Aka the vagina). If you’re an #ENDOsister drop a quick comment and briefly explain your symptoms as best you can. It’s good to know we’re not alone in feeling ‘uncomfortable’ for no apparent reason.
So let’s talk candidly about the life of an “influencer”. I usually post photos of food or supplements on Tuesdays, but I couldn’t today because the content that I created was going to mess up my grid if I posted any of the images today. If you’re reading this saying “what is she talking about, messing up her grid?” than no worries. It’s just one of the silly things that us influencers worry about on a day to day bases.
So if you envy the influencers you follow, just know they put a lot of work into the posts they create for you. If you’re interested in becoming an influencer and you have no idea what I’m talking about, then I’m happy to take you through a few lessons as part of my series on becoming an influencer. Message me for details! #strongnfit#keepingitreal
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I'm going to be real here #ketofam ... I've been on the struggle bus this past week or so. I have been feeling bloated, a little grouchy and kind of just off all around. I'm frustrated that my weight loss is slow. I'm frustrated that last week I lost .2lbs after strictly tracking my macros and only eating 2 meals with no snacks. I'm frustrated that I still have such a long way to go to reach my goal. I'm frustrated that I even allowed my weight to get so out of control in the first place. I'm just plain frustrated.
I'm not sharing this for accolades, I'm sharing this for anyone who may be struggling this week as well. It's ok to recognize our struggles. Life is not always rainbows & butterflies... this is real life. And life can be hard.
The key to all of this ... recognizing your struggles & frustrations, but not allowing them to derail you. I'm choosing to be frustrated in this moment, but also using that frustration as motivation to keep moving forward. I DO NOT want to go backwards!!! So, I'm using this #transformationtuesday along with frustration as motivation to keep pressing on.
What motivates you to keep moving forward?