Anxiety is a bitch that comes for revenge. When no wrong is done, so when those moments come of shifty eyes, late replies, or complete distance. Just know it’s not personal. A peace of mind is first priority for me right now. #peacefirst#release#ithappens#notpersonal#dontdwellonit
Today was seriously one of the scariest moments of my life. It only took 3 of these small bite size crackers to cause my 14 month old to choke. Full on, couldn’t make a sound, literally turned purple/blue - choke. When I tried to fish them out, it just pushed them farther down his throat. So I had to perform the Heimlich maneuver and luckily, it worked.
• Friends, I post this for a few reasons. One being because I have never taken a CPR or first aid training class. The most I’ve done is look at charts and watched videos on what you’re supposed to do (and even that was years ago). If you haven’t educated yourself on what to do in situations like this, PLEASE DO. I’ll spare the traumatic and emotional details but I’m not exaggerating when I say, this was a life or death situation. I don’t even want to think about what could have happened had I not taken those small, but crucial steps • I cut his blueberries in half this morning so I’m beating myself up on why I didn’t just cut these in half too. He’s eaten these for months and honestly, it was probably just out of pure laziness. Not to mention, although he was within view, he was in another room. Please take the time to do this and make sure to always supervise your kids while they are eating. He literally couldn’t make a sound. So I was only able to SEE that he was choking. #hugginghimalittletightertonight#idefwontbesleepingtonight#feelingliketheworstmom#pleasedontmakethesamemistake#ithappens
I was kind of missing the grain cart. It seems forever ago since we were able to run on a weekday. And then I got stuck. Welcome back. I knew it was going to be one of those days when the words of wisdom given to me earlier were "give her hell" . #pigsandkids#welcomeback#stuck#ithappens
Then I remembered, detachment
Its just an item.
It can be replaced.
I shattered my blender into a thousand pieces and yes, that sucks.
But its just a thing. Its not worth wasting the energy to be upset about something that can be easily replaced.