Am I bad for feeling envious of others, for always being together? That they get to see each other as often as they wanted to? There were times that i don't want to open this account because the jealousy is eating me, questions inside my head were making me feel upset.. Please don't get me wrong, I am happy with the people i met here, happy with their news of meeting each other again, happy that some of you are closing the distance soon, happy that met all of you.. Its just that SOMETIMES insecurities dominates my head.
I'm happy that I get to see Louis everyday, there's no question to that. I'm always thankful to him for making me feel loved even though we are seven thousand miles apart. It's just I hate how plane tickets are hella expensive for us, that we can't just be together everytime we want to just like other couples. 😭 (that's what i'm envious about)
And, in times like this i just wanna spend time alone in my room (while Louis is at work) and be thankful for all the blessings that God has blessed us. For the people that i met here and for all the advices they've given us.
Do you sometimes feel like that or it's just me? 😞