Ive been willing to write you its been a while.
I havent had time but mostly I am not yet emotionally responsible to write about you or us.
I want to mean truthfully all words I choose, specially because this is the first letter I write to you since we are apart.
In fact I want to ask you to please dont throw away all the letters I wrote to you (as well the ones you wrote me) so the kids can read it to me when Im old.
The truth is that I did a lot of crying since I met you. I suffered being with you, and I suffered being without you.
All in all I understand we burned out. It all happened to prove we were not meant to be.
But at this point I just want to embrace both the love and the tragedy of our story as something inevitable.
I equally loved you as I hated you. But Im very proud of the effort I put into this relationship, of the kids we made and the struggles we went through.
We are now apart with two kids to raise. I never thought that stealing a kiss from you would lead to this - it was by far the most consequential impulsive act of my life.
Maybe Kai and Inca cosmic force made me do it so they could be born.
I was crazy ‘bout you Dennis and I have no doubt I still love you and always will, in a very different way but coming from the same place it was born.
I met you and I thought I could help you and fix it for you. Not only I made that my goal but I made that my life.
I gave you all of me and I hope that forever you will carry in your heart the light I tried to put inside you.”
(An unfinished letter to Dennis - 2015) 📝
L’inverno non è un periodo dell’anno che mi piace, ma quando arriva Dicembre tutto cambia.
Il tetro lascia il posto a tutte quelle piccole luci sparse qua e là, quelle giornate così buie e corte,la sera, si illuminano.
L’atmosfera che si crea in questo periodo è magica: fare l’albero, lo stare insieme, le tavolate, i giochi, la corsa ai regali e le infinite risate.
Amo il Natale e amo tutto ciò che si crea attorno a questo periodo, sarà perché sono nata con questa atmosfera, sarà perché mi mette tanta allegria il fatto è che mi piace, mi piace molto!
BUONE FESTE A TUTTI ✨
While I'm experiencing a brain blow here (who knew that if you run a small business a MONTH before Christmas you'll have to work 24/7), my thoughts are back to the place where the biggest rush was to go find a good big palm leaf for a shoot after you got really high :) Md @my_phangan
Place Koh Phangan
Эх, Настя, щас бы на Панган❤