It took seeing a dietitian weekly which hasn’t happened in almost 8 years when I first went into treatment. It took upping therapy, changing the way I think and letting go of everything I know and is comfortable. It’s not easy, but it’s so worth it to be able to enjoy taking trips, hanging with friends, actually having energy to live life without crippling anxiety hanging over my every move and only feeling good enough with the less I ate. I hated how I felt on my last trip to Disneyland, that was an extreme low for me. It made me realize how controlled I was by my ED, and there were so many rules I had to follow I couldn’t possibly follow them all and live life as a normal 28 year old as well. But I don’t have to live that way anymore, and I finally feel free after feeling trapped and controlled for so long. It’s not all rainbows and sunshine but it kinda feels that way right now, and I know I still have a lot of work to do, but I’m down for it! If I’m going to struggle, I’d rather struggle forward.
Greetings, my lovely subjects! Haha! In honor of Halloween drawing near, today, I am hosting a very special “Mousequarade” ball at the Magic Kingdom in which everyone is invited! There will be lots of swell music, treats, and beautiful costumes to admire! I simply cannot wait to see all of my friends there! It’s going to be a wonderful celebration! 🏰✨💕
[This royally magical photo was captured by: @19281118mm ✨]