‘Art is something that can not be forced!’ That’s a crap idea. Been looking at trending 2009vs2019 images and looked into my old art. This was done in 2010. This drawing signifies my conscious decision to start creating things in such manner that I would be happy with myself. I was in my hometown, in a house where I grew up, alone in my room on second floor, sitting at old wooden grandfather’s table and I told myself: I don’t get away from this table till I finally draw something that I’m really proud of! All that week I would draw non stop, day or night, getting up just to go to bathroom, barely eating. I felt how important for me is to discovery own formulas of constructing the narrative in drawing, inventing my own visual language. It didn’t happen suddenly. It was painful and hard to keep on drawing long hours. But I was proud of myself, I was tired but I was happy. I created something that nobody else could have created. This is how I feel my purpose of living is fulfilled. This is how I share the message from the unseen realms. It is not an easy job, but I only know that I have to do it. No matter what. This is a first drawing of signifying this awareness. It took me 14 hours of work.
‘Suffocate with rage’ series: "Tickle to death". A4,paper, 0,25 rapidograph, ~14h of work.