| Walking the runway for mental health for the past 2 years has been such an incredible experience. This cause is so near and dear to me because everyday I face mental illness, either as a nursing student or my own reflection in the mirror.
I battle severe anxiety, an anxiety that used to cripple my life and rob me of peace. It always made me feel not good enough, and not popular enough through school. I realized I didn’t really fit in to any “group” in HS besides being in show choir. I realized I didn’t care about how good I looked, and cared more about the needs of others. My anxiety robbed me from being who I truly was.
Once I left for college my anxiety got worse, at this point I still didn’t understand that’s what I even was dealing with. Eventually I talked to my doctor and discovered the real dark truth of my soul, a shadow that had been holding me captive my entire life. I grew up dealing with verbal and physical abuse, so to say my anxiety started out as a young kid made a lot of sense to me. I saw multiple counselors throughout my years to try to understand why I felt what I did. I reached out to God as a freshman in college begging him to cure me of this, to release it from me because I couldn’t take being this way any longer. The very next day a group of Christians randomly approached me on the sidewalk of my school and asked to have a bible study with me, I hesitantly agreed. We sat down just the three of us and the first passage they opened to for me was in the book of Matthew titled anxiety. In that moment I felt the most incredible peace over me, because I got confirmation that God is alive and with me but also heard my pleads and brought me to his word for comfort.
Although I spiraled downhill a year later after being in an abusive relationship with an ex boyfriend that resulted in domestic violence, it sprung my anxiety into high gear. I found my way back to the truth, to God. I haven’t turned around or swayed from His truth since. I still face my anxiety everyday, but I now reach for God when I feel the weight of the world coming down on me. Mental illness usually hides behind a smile and a laugh, and that was once my reality. XO |
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