Man and his best friend playing catch in the water
1 15an hour ago
Back to that time & place of feeling unsure.
In a constant flux of what I know and ruled by my feelings of uncertainty.
Because my days are torn with self hatred & guilt.
Guilty for being the way I am.
For feeling the way I feel.
For setting myself up for failure because I simply don’t believe in my self 75% of the time these days.
Guilty for feeling like a burden, and questioning whoever it is that loves you for their reasoning for it, because you barely love yourself.
Some days are harder then others, I’ve learned that the worst thing you can do is get lost in your mind.
Desolate in your own thoughts of past or future.
Depression is dwelling on the past.
Anxiety is dwelling on the future.
My soul knows to let go because you have no control. But my mind frantically grasps very gesture, at every word.. My heart hurts and today is a bad day.
Feeling close to that familiar rock bottom, I’ve fallen to before.
Shocked to feel that surface again.
But this is the reality of things, this is life when one struggles with mental health.
This is life when you don’t go home and love your family, when you aren’t attentive and kind.. very simple things could have changed everything,
Would of changed everything,
Should have changed everything,
But they didn’t. So this is my reality. This is a lot of people’s reality. & I will share mine with the world, or whoever is willing to listen.
Because the only way, I have ever kept myself a float is to put others first. So maybe in hopes of sharing, it will help someone see a light when they need to.
My life isn’t all butterflies, mountain tops and waves at shoreline.. those are just the things I love, that ground me, that keep my sane and keep me company in a lonely place..
Today I’ve questioned my existence, my mind, my worth. & I’m tired of questioning these things.
I’m tired of not feeling good enough.
I’m tired of stressing and worrying.
I’m tired of caring what people think.
I don’t want to do it anymore..
Ride em cowgirl! .
One thing I love about this campground is that there’s a riding stable right next to us. If you know me you know I’m kinda horse crazy and of course a trail ride had to happen! 🐎 Our guide was super informative and we learned so much about the terrain, saw two rattlesnakes😳 and got to pick wild sage along the way.. which I’ll be using in my chicken tonight. It’s a beautiful trail through Canada’s desert in Osoyoos and the fires have cast a hazy glow on the sky. Not great for breathing but great for photos! .
Any other horse crazy friends out there? #horselovers#trailrides
There’s a reason The Dale Trailside is being built in the beautiful Lake Country.
Location, location, location!
Winfield’s town centre is just a six minute drive from The Dale, Kelowna is only 20 minutes away and to get to Vernon, you’ll be driving for 23 minutes.
That means that you can get out of the concrete cities, but be close enough for a day trip or a short drive to run errands.
There are only 8 homes remaining in phase 1, so reserve your home today.
a relaxing dip before heading back to the valley 🤗
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