#TBT Growing and getting bigger is great, even though I hate eating all the food, it becomes a real struggle after a while which has been my limiting factor in adding new muscle tissue over the past few years. It's still great seeing your clothes fit well again and getting stronger each week!
But, nothing beats flicking back through your camera roll and remembering how shredded you got last time you competed (or cut down) This was the night before the British, I sacrificed some muscle size to come in more conditioned and this was the result! (I woke up even tighter in the morning) A smarter approach applying what I learned this season should see a bigger and more shredded me onstage next time!
I can do anything I set my grind to. Little morning motivation. But also reflection. #tbh I thought I was fat when I took this picture. LOL at my fat ass now. 😂😅 just goes to show we get in our own way, nobody else. I’d be lying if I said I didn’t aspire to be this shreddy 24/7. But that’s just not realistic or healthy allllll the time. So I want to learn some happy balance and that’s my resolution for this year. To be healthy and happy in my own skin without being super tiny or super Chunk, but somewhere in the happy median. This does give me motivation to compete again. But first we getting them round ass muscles. With @ifbbprodollar 💪👌👀 #throwback#shreddy#bikinicompetitor#bikini#nationalqualifier#shredded#workout#1dayout (under 8 months of construction) I went out and did work y’all.
#1dayout Anzeige | vom besten @_hairotic_ gehts jetzt ab nach Köln zum Coachi @colognebbteam dort werde ich angemalt und dann gehts mit @lucy_22_poe und @ja_an90 im Gepäck zurück nach Dortmund 🙌🏼 lang wird der Abend nicht, weil morgen müssen wir früh raus und dann geht das große schminken los 🥳 ich wünsch euch einen guten Start ins Wochenende 💕
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Happy Friday guys 😊 it’s check in day for me 🙋🏻♀️📸
I wanted to open up and share this with you all 💕
Sooo many feels come up when I see this video ❤️ 😭 ✨
FIRST ☝🏻 How proud I feel, knowing I was able to achieve two extended back to back preps and managed to qualify for #vanpro An international show here in Canada 🇨🇦 so proud of my overall physique and persistence through trying times ❤️ I think about how amazing I feel and look in my @suitlady_ca Custom bikini 👙💙 a suit That i loved to pieces 😍 -
But some other feels come up too... 😶😔
SECOND ✌🏻 How I wish part of me was still that size....
Still that shredded and lean... That petite petite waist, and tight mid section...
I had never been so tiny (approx 105lbs) and I loved it.. _
I mean who wouldn’t want to look “stage ready” EVERY. DAY. 😫🤗 ?! Especially when YOU THINK you feel amazing... but it’s all a mind trick.
The reality is, it’s not possible 🤷🏻♀️😣... and would you really want to make it possible?
Think about it... Remember how much weight training, intense cardio, restricted food and limited lifestyle choices... it made LIVING my life (especially being in a relationship) a challenge.
Yes @agushue77 and I go to the gym daily, but the training style of prepping for a comp is much more demanding than anything else 🖤
Looking at this video Andrew took before showday, it astonishes me.... like... that’s me like holy shit! 😆 😅💙 🤣
I now know, what I’m capable of. And that’s ANYTHING 🔥🙌🏻😈 you just gotta really really want it! 🙏🏼 _
I am now working my ass off, hustling day in, day out with @t_zone_fitness building towards something better & greater for next year! 💪🏼 ✨
Thankful for this burger🍔
Thankful for this physique I’ve built💪🏼
Thankful for my health to be able to push to this level🙏🏼
Thankful for my determination to not give up when things got tough👊🏼
Thankful for the struggles I’ve faced for they made me stronger
Thankful for having the courage to pursue my dreams
Thankful to be here🤙🏼
Thankful to be living my dream✨
Thankful for all of you, your support & your love
Thankful for my team, so grateful for each of you🙌🏼
Thankful for my fam, wouldn’t be here w/o them
Thankful for my coach @autumnatikk
Thankful for bae @trenton.defler💕
Thankful for today, tomorrow & everyday after
Life is too short to be anything but thankful, Happy Thursday FAM! #1DAYOUT